This kid turned 8 today. Can’t begin to explain how proud I am to be her mom. We had Lily’s luau birthday bash took at school this afternoon in anticipation of her upcoming Make-A-Wish trip to Hawaii!
Her party was a success. It started with a ballet class taught by New York City Ballet (check out Lily independently getting her feet into 5th position) and then the luau with pizza, cupcakes, giggles and dancing. Lots of dancing!!! After school we had a play date with her friend Xan. And then we had dinner at Playa Betty – her favorite restaurant. Afterwards we walked/ran home with excitement to have some more singing of ‘happy birthday’ and blowing out candles.
In lieu of presents we are asking for donations to the Rett Syndrome Research Trust if you so wish: https://rettgive.org/projects/a-cure-for-lily/
It’s 5:30pm on the 24th of January. And it just hit me. Today marks 5 years since d-day–Lily’s Rett diagnosis day.
What a 5 years it’s been. What a roller-coaster. But I wouldn’t give it up for anything. I’ve got the sweetest, coolest almost 8 year old I know. She is my joy, my inspiration.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not easy. Every day I say to her when she’s having a tough moment–like trying to walk in the morning or crying uncontrollably in the middle of the night–that I can’t fix things. But that I can make them better. With love and comfort and compassion. But I can’t fix it. I can’t fix it.
That sucks. No one should ever have to see their child suffer so much. Every day. Every day. I’ll say it again: every day.
And we are so fortunate right now as Lily is going through a relatively stable period. And the ‘relatively’ is truly that. I am not trying to sugarcoat any of it: our ‘normal’ is anything but that.
So it’s been 5 years. And we’re getting closer to the ‘cure’ but it’s still not here. And every day as Lily grows and Rett continues to ravage her body, that ‘cure’ looks less and less like a cure for her. At this point I’ll take whatever it is we can get. Just to let her have the ability to breathe with ease, to wake up and not be in pain… I’ll take it.
I can’t believe she’s going to be 8 in a few weeks. I can’t believe how much she’s grown and changed. I can’t believe how much I’ve transformed because of her. And for that, I am grateful.
In so many ways, she’s such a ‘normal’ kid. She’s been putting together weekly hair menus letting me know how she wants her hair done every day. How freaking cute is that? Currently she’s all about pigtails. As you can see from the menu and hairstyle:
Her birthday is on the 8th of February. And I wish I could give you a list of things she wants as presents. But I don’t have one because she cannot tell me outright. So if you want to do something for her, consider making a donation to Rett Syndrome research. Not only will it go to her future, but the future of all her other Rett sisters and brothers.
C & L
This came home from school yesterday. 100% imagined by Lily.
Lily has had a fantastic few weeks at school. She’s been independently using the Tobii at circle time to interact with the teachers and students. She’s been identifying letters and numbers (through the Tobii). She’s also been speaking independently… saying things like ‘hurry up!’ and ‘hi!’ and ‘Woo back!’. The last phrase is a horseback-riding term her hippotherapists try to get her to say when she is asked to stop the horse. Oh, and Lily has been doing great with using a utencil too to self-feed. Woot-woot!
Keep it up kid!
Using the Tobii to participate during circle time!