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Sixth grade: seizures and screaming and scoliosis and Hope?

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This is not your typical beginning of the school year update. I don’t have time for nostalgia as we’re playing a thankless game of whack-a-mole and the stakes are terribly high. Where to begin….

Lily started having seizures at the end of May. We’ve been working with her neurologist to find the right medication but it’s a long process of trial and error. Seizures are scary. And they’ve been happening daily. This sucks.

Also, and likely related, she’s been getting easily overwhelmed. It started with sneezing and coughing – she’d break down crying whenever someone made an unfavorable noise in front of her (which curtailed our already limited social engagements) but now she’s been having full blown meltdowns. Daily. Usually in the afternoons. And for no known reason. This sucks too.

And as if those things weren’t enough, the latest result from the orthopedic surgeon show that not only has Lily’s scoliosis progressed, but now one of her legs is growing at a different pace. What. The. Suck.

The Hope? Well the Hope (not sure why my autocorrect keeps capitalizing this word but I like it) is that maybe going back into a familiar routine will help us all move into a new normal with less pain, less screaming, more peace.

And throughout all the hell this child deals with because of Rett syndrome, she still continues to have moments of calm and joy and positivity.

Thankfully, for her first day of 6th grade, she had a good day.

First day of school photo shoot

Adventures with Mom

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Yesterday Lily didn’t have any therapies after school and Urszula had the day off. AND the weather was nice. A rare opportunity presented itself to me: taking my girl on an outing with no real agenda.

We walked up Columbus Ave to window shop, popping in and out of stores she wanted to explore. Once we hit 72nd, we went east to Central Park—Strawberry Field to be specific—where we listened to Beatles cover bands for a while.

Right now we are all a bit Beatles crazy in the house. So I’m not surprised my subconscious brought us to Strawberry Field. While there, Lily confided to me that Paul is also her favorite. (Sorry Auntie Angela – I was with you for a long time about John but after watching the Beatles documentary, I’m all about Paul!)

From there we walked through the park down to 67th. And then stopped off at a bookstore as I’m trying to find a book or two of poetry for her as I think she’d really enjoy it. We didn’t find a book but she loved exploring all the different sections, especially the photography books.

From there, we made our way back home.

It was quite the adventure and Lily didn’t tire at all – though I did a few times and so we would sit and people watch. She was smiling and happy throughout. And so was I.

#citygirls #uws #centralpark #beatlemania #rettlife

Practically perfect…

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It’s continued to be a roller coaster these past few days. But hopefully we’re turning a corner. More smiles and less tears. And lots of creativity today.

Today she made art with her hands in school (photo of that forthcoming) and after school she decorated the cover of her school communication book (it’s the book that goes back and forth between home and school so the home teachers and school teachers are connected). After she decorated it, she told Elaine ‘show mom’ in ‘home office’. (I was working from home today). The kid was so proud of her work. And so was I. So creative. #lilypoppins

The latest

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The teeth could not be saved. She won’t have two top front teeth. Maybe ever. 

The good news (I’m grasping at straws here) is that she didn’t need a double root canal and the potentiality of the teeth getting infected in the future (which is what happened to me painfully twice) won’t be a cause for concern.  Her recovery will be faster. 

We will find a new normal. We always do. But this time it feels very different for me. Because it was an accident and I was there and if only I were a few feet closer, I could have saved her. I can’t stop her scoliosis from forming, I can’t stop her feet from deforming, I can’t stop her head from not growing. But I could have stopped her from falling. I should have stopped her. 

It’s been a harrowing few weeks, which included an ER visit earlier this week related to the first surgery. Pain management for this kid who has already been through so much has been tricky. Her voice is now hoarse from all the crying. 

Hopefully now, the true healing can begin.

Quick update on Lily

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Lily had her oral surgery today. The goal had been to fully resposition the teeth. Unfortunately the surgeon saw too much damage to reposition, so instead focused on shoring up the the teeth and roots with a bone graft and a tooth splint (like temporary braces).

Lily is home now and, though in some discomfort, she’s come around from the anesthesia and is watching Mary Poppins (what else?!?!).

We have more appointments coming up next week and will keep you posted as things progress.