The latest

The teeth could not be saved. She won’t have two top front teeth. Maybe ever. 

The good news (I’m grasping at straws here) is that she didn’t need a double root canal and the potentiality of the teeth getting infected in the future (which is what happened to me painfully twice) won’t be a cause for concern.  Her recovery will be faster. 

We will find a new normal. We always do. But this time it feels very different for me. Because it was an accident and I was there and if only I were a few feet closer, I could have saved her. I can’t stop her scoliosis from forming, I can’t stop her feet from deforming, I can’t stop her head from not growing. But I could have stopped her from falling. I should have stopped her. 

It’s been a harrowing few weeks, which included an ER visit earlier this week related to the first surgery. Pain management for this kid who has already been through so much has been tricky. Her voice is now hoarse from all the crying. 

Hopefully now, the true healing can begin.

3 thoughts on “The latest

  1. If u could have prevented it you would have. You are the best mom. Really. She is the luckiest kid to have such a great mom. Love you all to the moon and back

  2. My good thoughts, good wishes and prayers are with all of you. My little Lily is so strong, you just know she will be OK. Please forgive yourself. You are such a special mother to a special child. Don’t let this bring you down. I’m always here for you, baby,

  3. Yes my sweet cousin, please forgive yourself and let the healing begin. NO ONE could be more dedicated to their child than you. Sending all my love to you all. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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